Did he rape me? Oh my gosh..

A friend of mine somewhat much older recommended I drink alcohol for clearing certain health problems. The problem is I got very high and don't remember anything the minute I laid my head to rest. Anything could have gone down that night. So I have found myself for the next several days asking and will continue to ask "did he rape me?" I believe not, for if he did there must have been some evidence right? Especially considering I have not been sexually active for the last few years. Oh well, I know I was not dreaming but I remember him being on top of me and asking him to get off. Hmph..Trying to take advantage of my vulnerable position. Hey! I remembered something. Arrgghh!!

Why does he use so much sarcasm?

The man that i want who is loving me but not giving his love to me is spewing sarcasm from every angle at me when I ask for his advice. I told him I need a man and quick and he better try to help me get one. What was his answer? Put an ad in the papers. Does he really mean that? He sure is good at pretending about his feelings and horrible at comforting women. Now why did I reach out to him?

I'm having a rough time lately. My brother came home drunk and this circumstance just transported me back to when I was a child. I grew up with an alcoholic father. Many days spent with my father weren't always pleasant. Now my brother? Alcohol? Okay so he is under stress with the loses he has incurred over the past couple of months-his car-he was in an accident and now my cousin is stealing from him. My brother and I, we do not get along very well, so I'm treading on egg shells in case he trips on me. That was when I have decided to call the one person I want to be so dearly close to and I was greeted with sarcasm. Well I still appreciated that you lent a listening air my dear friend.

Yikes! It Ain't Over!

My cousin is out! Well at least he seems to be coming to his senses. Still stealing and desperate but much calmer now. No smoke for him I guess, so he is calmer. I like him better. Funny but he asked if I liked him and I told him no. I love him. There is a clear difference between liking someone and loving someone. You can like someone but not love them and vice versa. Well let's keep our fingers crossed.

Ooops..My Cousin Is Arrested

Okay so my stress is eased for the while. My cousin got arrested for smashing someone's car glass and also because the police when they searched him, they found he had a coke pipe. Now I'm having mixed feeling about his arrest. On the one hand this gives him an opportunity to recover but on the other hand, he will lose his US citizenship. So he's stuck with me for a very long time. That can't be good? What if he don't recover? More stress..Yikes! Imagine a life time of stress! Well..let me try living it one day at a time, known as the best way to ease up on stress.

He's Addicted...Lord Help!

How does one get to this point? I'm probably asking the most obvious and then again not so obvious question. Clearly I know people become addicts by first using drugs to get rid of deep and hidden underlying emotional issues but OMG. That's oh my gosh for those of you who don't know.I have lost my phone because of him. First he steals it and sells it and now he's stealing dvd's. Just caught him twice. Yep. And twice he's been allowed to get away with it. What's his sorry excuse? "Oh..I ain't got something. Everybody treating me like a kid. My own money they won't give to me." Well duh! What do you expect? You can't keep money kid! You'll spend all on your addiction ~ drugs. In my opinion, people who go on drugs are so selfish..both to themselves and to others. You stress others out with your uncivilized behavior and you dampen your spiritual light that supposed to glow inside of you. God! Please do something..

Why on earth!

So I am being researched on google and the other search engines by curious or rather fast persons! Don't like it one bit. Why do people, friends too,and yeah **** that too, why do they feel they need to spy on me? Good thing where the real money is they won't know. Hate that they trying to figure me out. Not like they could contribute right now..and no I am not underestimating them..they cannot contribute at this moment.

Had an unexpectedly good time for christmas!

I mean after all what did I expect? I spent christmas day among family and close friends. But why was it unexpectedly good? It was my cousin's wedding on that day! Yes my cousin got married to one of the group members, also the lead singer for the group surge. Live singing was done. Imagine that --> Groom sings on his wedding day and perform live for his wife. And she allowed him? Wow..I don't know but some other entertainer or bride would disagree on allowing grooms to sing on the big day.

Nasa discovers water on the moon!

I just finished a squidoo lens about nasa's historical discovery of water on the moon. I've added some cool photos and proof and evidences of water existence on the moon. Nasa Discovers Water On The Moon 2009

Are you that man? The Men I Adore...Five Things

There is a certain type of men I adore. Are You that man?

If you can play all the parts: child, father, lover, loved and play it all in every encounter then you're half way there. I adore you.
If you don't worry about your inconsistencies and allow women theirs as well then you must be his twin.Hmm..
If you are the type of man who value women for what and who they are rather than what they do then I want you.
If you are the type of man who have a certainty in yourself that isn't done in when countered by a certainty in your woman then please find me.
If you are the type of man that can adapt then it's that's simple..I need you